justrun-.

i'm sorry i can't be perfect.

leave me alone! please?
stop shouting.
stop scolding.
stop acting like you don't care.
but then again, maybe you don't.

I'M SORRY ok?

i'm sorry for not being able to look like i'm energised and happy
...when i can't walk straight, can't stop coughing, can't stop blowing my nose, can't feel like i'm well, can't stop feeling like i'm bloody sick

i'm sorry for not smiling and looking like i'm in pain
...when i am in pain

i'm sorry for purposely ruining ur oh-so-precious plank of wood by purposely stuffing epoxy into the wrong places and purposely mixing the epoxy wrongly
...when i didn't know that they were wrong, when i didn't know what fixing up the wood required, when i didn't even know how to mix epoxy because i just followed the instructions.

i'm sorry for being completely retarded in your eyes
...when all i tried to do was my best.

i'm sorry for purposely not photocopying all 3 pages of the article
...when i didn't know that there were 3 stupid pages instead of 1, when i didn't see any tags that u seem to have claimed to put there

i'm sorry for not being able to win any gold medals
...when i had to struggle between so many things that i was involved in, when i got sick and couldn't train for 2 weeks the month before nationals when everyone was in newcastle and i was home alone

i'm sorry for being the stupid idiot who gets emotional
...when i get scolded by you every other hour for "purposely" doing things.

i'm sorry but i'm useless.
sorry for tarnishing the family name.
sorry for even thinking that you CARED.
deeply sorry...

sorry but i can't be stupid perfect like all your other children.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [19:58]

and took [20040815] strides

it's the passion that drives you